. ....FANTASTIC FAIL!!!

So friday the 13th I tried to pull off what I think
is called a "Overlay" install of Windows 7.

I some how never read (or did something wrong) that
everything gets nuked outside of the program files!

......WTF!
.

<([x],[X])>

I knew I should of made a back up of things by now
& before trying this. It looked so simple and easy cut.

Its nothing big, I like to reformat my computer once
a year but usually make back ups.

Hella Christ, I jos blew up everything :) Lost over a
years worth of collected samples, custom graphics, all
sorts of neat fonts 1.2k not much by some standards but
still very time consuming. Also lost everything in the
My Music folder.

Its hard to say what out of all this crap I will miss
the most. I have set of old back up discs from 2yrs ago
or so, they are pretty much useless though and I keep
them around for old versions of programs.

I will miss my custom made Firefox the most. That was
a pain in the but to cut the search box code out of it.

......the music will hurt, pain will start setting in
.
as I slowly start starving.

<([x],[X])>...can you believe its almost 2010?

. ...oh what the hell is this: C:\WINDOWS\system32\NvCpl.dll,NvStartup
.

fuck you twenty o-nine!!

....a private boat

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\ where the wild things are |
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I collected words from things my studio mates where throwing

away in the normal trash that belonged in the recycling box.

I wood collect random words maybe 4-5 per wk, after I had a

HUGE pile of words in a basket I started looking for a canvas...



I found these planks of wood in a dumpster near a condo

construction site. Then I went to it,, Taking my time &

now here it is after almost 2yrs.......................





Here is the story that appears on this "almost finished & untitled work"

........................a bitter sweet story.

The title page that it's the story.

once upon a time

children we once where. ...



"boys and girls"

......with our tea cups in hands


.......at age 13

but emotionally

we were afraid

But to not show

....or share

the esoteric

.internal

external

chemical

enlightening

.

.

`wisdom,,....

the winter change

in a whirl 18 arrived

she picks up her tea

the other hand..........

a writer....................

.................she wrote

tricky combination of

.........sensitive issues

she looks me straight

eyes and kisses.........



...............and she nods

wonderfully slow loving

My mind races...........

for two years

the relationship just sort of unwound

external relationship situation

questions I drive in

there was no answer

communicate

to know I sensed something

th vag n ss w ch be.......

spe s of how t t pre i us

earlier attempts

I tried again

her response . ..... _ _____. ..don't construe

"the sky......

.....is falling"

and pats the dog on the head

and doesn't even

utter the words, for I know

ambivalence to sheer dread

though we stayed living together

another couple of years



letting go

water in the teapot......

..........memories from the past floating

traditions and obligations

ancestors before us who

...........................also use the current


out of that

well


offering insights

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My grief hung on like


the sky falling like chaos

freaking out misunderstood

chimpanzees..................

seeking revenge.............





Revenge is a natural, biologically



sick dark

difficult to discuss

Detachment

undiagnosed I struggled

the gnawing truth detachment

destroying, the love you lack

substance abuse

suicide alcoholic thinking



drink to drink, despair, harm

deeper numb A strange

equilibrium posses the spirit



craving for revenge

romanticize revenge

if your heart's

stolen overnight

I offer it to you now

revenge and forgiveness

-forgiveness

my way out

For you private boat ride, watch this:

<([//]-[//])>...can I swear on here?

...So today Iam trying to do some heavy multi-tasking (edit video to a dj mix ect) and one thing leads to another right....... (this is why multi tasking = FAIL for dudes at least, scientifically I've read that only girls can attempt to truely multi task.)


So I find myself @ http://cancerisnotfunny.blogspot.com/


I suspect the ol search engine found "mix tapes" & thats how I ended up at this here persons blog -true story!


Upon closer inspection of the blog I find that the person operating the blog is Sweet Marie, apparently & you should check the blog out its great. Its so great I had to set up this blog that I have been meaning to for a hot minute now.


So yeah this is my first blog post & Iam uberly new 2 everything about this site other then the occasional blogs I have peeked at here and there. In the future I will post info on music mix's up here & maybe review shows & other arts related things. +I do have my own record label in the works+. (almost done with the paper works)

Speaking of! Shout out to ADDiQUIT http://www.myspace.com/addiquit who is nailing down her EU tour deets & got her own record label on the roll: DEAD RICH RECORDS or dead rich entertainment :p Her label name aint 100% yet I guess, butt butt I know her ass is 100% for reals about it!!!

I guess thats all for now, oh check this out: